Seeing my debut article posted on SEXIS was a great landmark in my life. Things are getting real. It marks the beginning of what I hope to become a lucrative career as a (sex) journalist and author. I really enjoyed interviewing other massage therapists, shoving my voice recorder in their faces, digging deeper into their forbidden sexual services. I think I'm drawing closer to my life's purpose.
But, then the unexpected happened...
The attention turn onto myself...
After recieving my first draft, the publishers wanted to get deeper into my personal experiences. Knowing that I am a massage therapist, they wanted the dirt on me. Why am I interested in this story? Have I ever caved in for cash? Were there any hard lessons learned?
More than anything, I was surprised by the tremendous internal conflict that was happening within me. The ideas of fabrication and omission made my stomach turn. If I demanded the raw truth from the sex workers I interviewed, why should I be any different? When did this become a work of fiction?
Here goes nothing...
The story features a client that I've had for a couple of years now, I named him "Dave". At first, he was just a stiff cyclist who needed his legs worked on. He suffered from hypertension and sever cramping which I was trained to help; however, I wasn't prepared for his secret tensions.
I'm not sure what wires are crossed in that man's brain, but he can cum from having his hamstrings massaged. Working on his glutes send him into overdrive. There has never been any direct sexual contact; but what do you do when your shiatsu sends him over the top?
My home training suggested that I refer him to another therapist. My Christian upbringing suggested that I should feel bad for what happened. But I felt none of that. Matter of fact, the first trace of shame I felt regarding my special client/therapist relationship was writing that article. The shameless can blush, too.
In the near future, this blog will feature the audio recordings of my interviews with my good friends, Max and Philipe. Hopefully, upon listening you'll hear the profound truth within the talk of sex, shame and money. In a three part series, we will be discussing the merge between massage, sex work and healing.
Check out my debute article for SEXIS: