As a kid, one thing that have really primed my homosexual feelings was the shroud of mystery surrounding the male body. I remember watching movies and noticing how women were so thoroughly exposed while men were always censored. To see films creatively edited to cover or evade the penis, testicles and ass of men made me very curious. What were they hiding? Why are they hiding it? In the rare moments when they would flash a cock or an ass, (as a young boy, mind you) I used to pause the film at the exact millisecond of exposure.
As a teenager, I began to read workout magazines, getting off to the outlines of the model's penis shining through the spandex. Having the male body hidden and alluded to turns something on in my mind. Flipping through Playgirl or Mandate had a different effect on me than Men's Workout. Of course, I love my pornography, but my favorite erotica allows my imagination to fill in the blanks.
Every now and again, I'll purchase a menswear catalog or a fitness magazine and let my mind wonder. The photographer knows what they're doing, the model's shorts will rise just enough. The bulges are big and suggestive. I love the way they demonstrate a bench press with their knees far apart, exposing their inner thighs. Everyone in the world knows how to do bench presses, but every issue I can submerge in the fantasy of spotting the man of my dreams. Coincidence?
6 comments:
Thanks to porn I HATE using my imagination. If I can't see dudes junk I go right to the next.
Oh my god I used to, before discovering porn, carouse the video rental place for every movie that I thought would have male nudity or even a GLIMPSE. Color me pissed when all i saw was some leg or ankle...Or course the woman would be walking around with her big boobies out...
I'm like, "Girl, please have a seat."
Anyway, thank goodness for Jean Claude Vandamme. I still love him for always having an obligatory booty shot in ALL his damn movies.
I can relate, but just like Cogent I'd rather not have to use my imagination. I wanna see what he hiding,lol.
I promise I haven't seen your post before I decided to put the CHILDHOOD MEMORIES serie on my blog. The pic of this man's torso in blue reminds me something of my sexuality's beginning... As you ?
@Dayum: Something is going on in the cosmos, I've been doing the same thing...Revisiting the stimulus that first started me on this course...
i like to be teased, but i need to see the goods to really get me going. one of my faves has never done a porn movie, not even a solo, so i have to imagine, and i do quite well in that department...
;)~
HUGZ
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